new story of life

Just let it begun with a smile not a tears 

to make it more actionable for those eyes

and be the only one 

that have the only faked smile .

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hey . its been a long time i didn't 'mengarut' on my beloved blog . yeah , busy with all thinggy. school thing ,

friends , school works , family and not forgotten my heart story . As you know , my feeling faced with a tough 

problem  . well , yeah you know . ordinary love story . fall in love , being loved , half love and gone . that's how i feel . but , i don't care cause' its part of my experience , yeah . luckily my friends support me as i was fall down . 

but ,

i fall in love with other person now . and as the time passed by , someone loved me . and i try to loved him cause' i know the person that i love won't and might not love me like i do .i won't forced people and i won't let people hurt just because of me . and i don't want the same story being repeated again . just now , i'm trying   

and fell in love with him again :)

love , i hope you care of me . cause' once you stole my heart , it have given away . just to make sure you truly true , iloveyou :)

justandonlyyou :)

boy and girl :)

oh dearly dear,
wait till they gone
to let the rainbow come
and let shine
just for you and me ♥

but girl ,
i will never stop ,
till their blood is shed ,
and ,
till their fate is scatters by war .

yeah boy ,
please don't ever stop ,
cause ,
this scar will never end ,
bleeding like hell ,
till they knee head down to me .

i want to be part of your future ,
'cause there is a rainbow between you and me ,
i try to show how much i feel ,
so can you see the light ?

i'm a part of you ,
make the road of love bright ,
cause' there's a sunshine upon it ,
to see how do i feel ,
when you and i both .

p/s : conversation between me and and Rafiq Dabeedee .
        This is how we communicate .

im on my way

me and her

pencil and paper

be the ink of each pens

the person i love so much .

her and him

apple of her eyes

the one and only

but there's no me and her

just her and him

and if i can say to them

shout it loudly and fiercely 

search my bravery and strength 

say

that i hate him and her so much

and keep a sinister smile 

it would be nice , i guess

but , i just can't

because i love her and him

she is my happiness

he is my strength

don't want to be the hater

just be the kinder 

thus

write about me in your diary

even a little dot 

i do not care

as long i stay in it

if i know i will loved and lost

i wish i will never loved at all

so ,

just don't find me

i on my way to 

HEAVEN .

sinner shaped

today was a fairytale

but it ain't shuffle back

just till now i know

there are sinister smile inside you .

it's a sin to kill

and it's a sinner to lie

regret when you hurt

returning to the one

you the one that i have decided

to be my whole life after life partner

time is too short to spend

and life is too long to shaped

but

if i was smart , you won't be mine

tho i know that i be fine

i just wish that i can find

away that can end this whine .

-shout .